Despite the title of yesterday’s post, I’m starting to wonder if I want to continue with NaBloPoMo. For those of you who have read this blog for awhile, you might have noticed that it’s been very quiet. I’ve been working on my first book. Actually, it might be two books. Or three. J
Most days, I only work in about thirty minutes of writing. On Tuesdays, I get two whole hours, since I chose to sit out of Chorus this semester to devote more time to writing. Writing a blog post everyday sucks up that thirty minutes and then some. Now I’m not sure I want to spend a whole month away from my book(s) to do that.
I missed the ready feedback from blogging, as well as the satisfaction of finishing a project. (These books aren’t going to be done for awhile.) But I don’t miss the necessity of churning something out whether it’s the story I want to tell or not.
I want to tell Lucy’s story, as well as my own. I want to try my hand at a mystery. That’s not going to happen if I spend most of the month on blog entries. I have to sit down and do the work.
I only want to continue NaBloPoMo if it’s bringing me closer to my goals as a writer, rather than letting me hide from them. At the very least, I want to have fun with it. I spent most of my life hiding from this dream. I don’t want to hide from writing with other writing.
In the past, I wouldn’t have even considered giving up on a commitment like this. Persistence is a virtue, but I am proud that I am starting to see when it is not. It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks. All that matters is telling the story I want to tell.
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